How I got here..

Hello again, wanderers.

Today was one of those days where I found myself pausing for a moment and thinking.. how did I actually get here?

And I don’t mean here as in the motel room I’m writing this from.

I mean here as in this version of myself. The one who, somehow, feels more peaceful and grounded than ever before, even though my life on the outside looks completely uncertain.

Because if you had told me not that long ago that I would be rebuilding my life from scratch, living in a motel with my two huskies while building a business and chasing a vision that most people probably wouldn’t understand.. I’m not sure I would have believed you.

But here we are.

And honestly? I’ve never felt more aligned with my purpose.

Something interesting has been happening lately. When you’re truly aligned with what you’re meant to be doing, the days seem to stretch in a way they never used to.

Not because time slows down.. but because your energy changes.

The same twenty-four hours suddenly feel fuller. More productive. More intentional.

I wake up with ideas. I spend time coaching, writing, thinking about WanderWi, sharing pieces of my journey, reflecting on conversations I’ve had with people. Some days are quiet. Some days are incredibly busy. But even the long days don’t feel draining the way they used to when I was living out of alignment.

It’s almost like when you finally start walking in the direction your soul has been nudging you toward all along.. your energy rises to meet it.

And today was a perfect example of that.

Tonight I was watching a live online with a friend. At first it was actually kind of funny. Just typical internet chaos, people talking over each other, everyone trying to be heard, the usual.

But then something shifted.

It’s hard to explain exactly when it happened, but all of a sudden I felt it in my body. My chest tightened and this quiet voice inside me said, I don’t want to be here anymore.

Nothing dramatic had happened. No one had done anything wrong.

But suddenly I could see it differently.

Everyone was talking at the same time. Everyone wanted attention. Everyone was performing in some way. And I just felt this wall hit inside me where I realized.. this doesn’t resonate with me anymore.

Not in a judgmental way.

Not because anyone was doing something “bad.”

Just because when you start removing your own mask and showing up authentically, you begin to notice how much of the world is still operating through performance.

And again, that’s not me saying I’m better than anyone in that room. It’s simply an observation that comes with this stage of growth that I’m in.

Authenticity is still fairly new to me.

Feeling safe inside myself is still fairly new to me.

Trusting my own inner voice instead of performing for acceptance is still fairly new to me.

So when my body tells me something doesn’t feel aligned, I’m learning to listen.

And tonight that meant leaving the live.

Moments like that might seem small, but they’re actually huge milestones for me. Because there was a time in my life where I would have stayed. Where I would have ignored that feeling and kept participating just to fit in.

But healing changes you.

Slowly, quietly, and sometimes in ways you don’t even realize until one random moment makes it obvious.

Which brings me back to the question I started this entry with.

How did I get here?

The truth is, it didn’t happen overnight.

It came through years of learning, unlearning, breaking old patterns, rebuilding my relationship with myself, and choosing.. over and over again.. to keep growing even when it was uncomfortable.

I’m not “fully healed.” I don’t believe anyone ever reaches some final destination where growth stops.

But I am more aware. More grounded. More honest with myself than I have ever been.

And right now, that awareness is guiding everything I’m building.

WanderWi isn’t just a brand or a business idea to me. It’s the embodiment of everything I’ve learned about healing, connection, authenticity, and trusting your own path even when it looks completely different from the one everyone expects you to follow.

Right now, that path looks like writing blog posts at midnight, from a motel room, with Taejo and Dakota asleep nearby.

But someday it will look like traveling the country, meeting incredible people, holding space for healing, hosting retreats, and eventually creating an animal sanctuary where people and animals can both experience safety and connection.

That’s the vision.

And this blog is where I’m documenting the journey as it unfolds.

Not the polished version. Not the highlight reel.

The real version.

The days where things click. The days where they don’t. The insights that come from random moments. The lessons that show up when you least expect them.

If you’re reading this and you feel like you’re in the middle of your own “starting over” moment.. just know you’re not alone.

Sometimes the most uncertain chapters of our lives are actually the ones where everything finally starts aligning.

And I’m really glad you’re here walking this one with me.

Sending love, light, and positive vibes,